I feel rancid!!
Le yuk. Well, once again the siren song of cooked food has called me to it. I thought I was so well-prepared for it, too! I made 2 raw pies, raw "toast", raw breadsticks, raw cookies, some incredible apple chips, yam chips, ... but in the end, that yeasty bread my husband made called me in. And boy am I paying for it!!
Here's the breakdown of my breakdown:
2 weeks ago - decided to eat cooked but organic cookies on Easter sunday.
1 week ago - made huge raw menu for Easter Sunday to stem my temptations
Friday 9 - began making raw stuff, water fasted
Saturday 10 - began eating raw stuff to taste-test
Sunday 11 - started out with "just one" gigantic m&m (robin's egg?). avalanche. many m&m's later, tried delicious yeast bread. many slices later, ate organic animal crackers intended for husband's lunch this week. got act together.
Sunday afternoon - lunch feast with family. raw corn, raw breadstick, more bread and this time with fake margarine, the heart-health kind. 100% chemical.
Sunday, 4pm - unable to move. motor functions shutting down to facilitate herculean task of digestion. stomach actually feels distended.
Sunday, 6pm - walked around to watch egg hunt. movement is good. Brain activity returning.
Sunday, 7pm - unbelievably sat down to dinner, consisting of raw pies. Also snitched fingersful of frosting-from-a-can adorning the fake-coconut bunny cake.
Sunday, 10pm - tried to sleep, despite incredible stomach and intestinal ache.
Monday morning - still in pain. Literal pain. No hunger whatsoever. Pain over-rides urge to fill stomach ever again.
And that's pretty much where I am now. Vowing I will never succumb to cooked foods like that. If I give myself an "out" fine. Take it, but just take IT, not all the other foods within a few miles' radius! Ah, self-control. Wither hast thou gone? Wait, I never had it. Well, once again, this is why the strict rules must apply to self. I'm a whole-hog type of person. And yesterday I filled that role to its literal depths. Ewwwwwwwww. So gross today.
Posted by nimango
at 10:35 AM EDT