over-eating and other mind games
It's funny, but it seems that every time I go back to raw (and since May 03, that's been a lot of re-firsts) I eat non-stop the first 2 or 3 days. Actually, that's only one thing that happens without fail. The other is that my family will either a) bring home pizza as a surprise or b) gather together in some form of feasting celebration. Or both.

Anyway, yesterday it was pizza, and I did resist its siren call. Go me. But I ate cheese like it was my last refuge. I think it was the salt. I need to realize what it is my body wants, and I think yesterday it was water. As I was on the treadmill later that night, I started getting thirsty and what popped into my mind but cheese!! I kept thinking of where I could "score" my next batch of goat cheese. This time was only sheep, which was nice -- and I'll take raw cheese if it's milked from a baboon -- but I really like goat cheeses much better. Anyway, that was odd, but it clearly pointed out that I was thirsty and had given my body a nice little association between thirst and cheese. Joy.

Anyway, the cheese is gone and I need to eat more simply. Actually, I need to eat more structured. I just kept snacking all day yesterday. I mean, give your digestion a break, Nim! So today I'll fill the snacking urge with water and tea (which I should do anyway) and have a grapefruit snack at an appropriate snacking time. Plus I was bored yesterday, so yippee for eating just to do something. Yet again, all the good that fasting did for me, gone in a flourish of mindless cooked-food eating this weekend.

Ok, so that's that. Moving on. I'll make lists upon lists to fill my time, plan some meals, and maybe even do something productive to boot.

Oh, and on one other note, I'm super phlegmy today (and last night) and there is not a single doubt in my mind that it was the cow's cheese I ate. I didn't get a lot of mucous when I had goat and sheep cheeses this weekend, even with my cold. And when I was a kid, I drank goat's milk instead of cow's because of the homogenization process cow's had to go through. Something during that process set me off, and since goat's and sheep's milks have smaller fat globules, they don't separate like cow's does. I'm the freaking Scooby Doo of mucous now. Great.